Testimony of Faith
I have been a Christian since I was a child. I was christened when I was a baby and was raised in a house where we called ourselves believers. We didn’t go to church except for the fact that the Girl Scouts met in one of the rooms and on a rare occasion when I took my little brother and we walked. When I was in high school I found so many other things to occupy my time that I had truly lost focus. By the time I was in college I was offered to join some friends at church, but I didn’t want to give up partying and living with my boyfriend, so I always came up with an excuse.
I married my boyfriend and he almost immediately started cheating on me. I was also informed, after several years of trying, that I was unable to have children. I remember promising God that I would attend church if He would let me have children. A year and half later I became pregnant. I was so excited, I remember telling my husband about my promise and he just laughed at me. My pregnancy was very difficult and my baby boy was born by emergency C-section 6 weeks early, in order to save both of our lives.
Again, I started to feel a pull to go to church and tried a few times. My husband came up with several excuses and I gave up trying to go, unfortunately I never thought I should go by myself. 2008 was a very difficult year, just before Christmas 2007 my Grandfather died, in March my second son was born and two weeks later, my father went into the hospital with a massive heart attack and never came home. My husband left to be with his best friend’s wife and escrow closed on our new house, leaving me alone with a mortgage and 2 babies.
With all the men in my life that I had trusted gone, I felt like it was my turn, so I looked up. It was then I truly found God. He gave me the strength to move on. As soon as my divorce was final, I enrolled in nursing school to obtain my RN. Even with raising two little boys on my own, working full-time, and going to school full-time in an accelerated program, I never felt overwhelmed, and miraculously enough, I never got sick. During this time I started going to church and my boys flourished. They asked to go constantly, and how could I say no! At a church event I met a girl who needed to rent a room and thankfully I had one to rent. Since then, she has become one of my dearest friends and has helped me grow as a person and Christian. My mom helped me with babysitting and God provided the rest. We always had a roof over our heads, food in our bellies and utilities on. When my car broke I was able to replace it quickly without missing school. There was a scripture that always called to me and helped me to face the unknown without fear:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones. Prov 3:5-8 ESV
After God helped me graduate and pass my boards, He blessed our little family with an amazing godly man. It was funny because after my divorce my friends told me to write down what I wanted in my next husband. When I met Michael, I felt like God took my list and checked off all the boxes. He is an amazing dad and a great husband. I can’t say that it’s been easy. We’ve had some very challenging moments, but we know that with God in charge we will make it through and will continue to grow as a couple, best friends, and a family.
God has always made sure we’ve always been able to provide for our family. A few months after we were married I started having breathing problems and went from running in 5ks to not being able to climb the stairs without several breaks. The doctor found a hole in my heart that was growing larger and was unable to allow my body to circulate oxygenated blood through my body correctly. While at work one day I started having numbness in my left arm and vice-like pain across my back. A coworker of mine (it pays to work with nurses) immediately took me to the hospital a few blocks down and I had to stay there a week for testing. I was diagnosed with a mini stroke and possible heart attack. They moved up my surgery and I was able to have my surgery 3 months ahead of schedule due to my worsening condition.
I was terrified until the assistant pastor at our church surprised us while I was waiting to be wheeled in for surgery. From the moment he prayed over me I felt completely at peace and knew that God was in control and everything would be okay. The heart surgery was a success, and my recovery went so smoothly. After I was cleared from the cardiologist we decided to try for another addition to our family. My OB/GYN was honest and told me that there was a chance I wouldn’t be able to have another one due to the cysts on my ovaries. After praying and fasting I became pregnant. (Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful 2 Col 4:2 NIV). The pregnancy was complicated and along with the same high blood pressure as the first two, I ended up with Gestational Diabetes. Through all of this we trusted and asked for prayer from our family and church. Our baby was born 3 years ago, 4 weeks premature. He came home just in time for Christmas and our oldest two sons tell him every Christmas that he was the greatest Christmas gift they have ever received. Even though all three boys were premature, they have all grown completely healthy and so loving. They are truly gifts from God.
Since then my mother, aunt, and brother have all returned to church with us and my brother, mom, and my oldest two boys have all been baptized. I know without fail that God has always prevailed and with his provisions I am so excited to face the future.
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him. Psalm 28:7 NIV
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